changes

be careful what you pray for, you just might get what you want, right?
i've been asking for a change for a very long time.
i am angry. i am sad. i feel betrayed & abandoned. i feel used & abused.
18 years & this is what i get.
i just have to realize that i am in a situation where i didn't have a choice. the choice was made for me. but i can choose to make the most of it. i can choose to make the best of it. i can choose to stay positive.
this is certainly a change, it's not what i wanted but it's what i got. now what?
back to the drawing board.....